So I was trying to decide what to write about this week, but I keep coming back to the same thing.
Horribly stuck. Have been for weeks. So irritating.
I am 20,000 words into my current story. Those 20,000 were easy and I really like what I wrote (which doesn’t often happen in the first draft). I even know what’s going to happen next. But for the last two weeks I haven’t moved past the last scene I wrote. I open up my word document, read the last thing I wrote…and stare at the computer screen. After a few minutes, I find my gaze sliding to my wall of books or opening up Netflix without having typed a single word.
Part of it is laziness. I admit that. It’s so much easier to watch a movie or read a book than work. And while the writing was easy, now it isn’t so I find myself taking the easy way. Please tell me I’m not the only one.
But a bigger part is I lost interest because I don’t like the scene I’m working on now. It sounded good in my head, and I still like the concept, but when I put it on paper, it fell way short of what I imagined. So I keep coming back to it, trying to figure out what’s wrong, what I’m missing. I made some changes, undid those changes, made some other changes, added some characters I have no idea what to do with, read it over and over.
Of course, Mez told me what to do weeks ago. Just get past it and keep writing, it can be fixed later. Funny, I remember her telling me that before, and me telling it to her.
But I seem to be fixated.
I want it to be as good as I think it can be, not leave it as it is, with it nagging in the back of my head that it isn’t right.
Still, time to take her advice and force my way through the wall or I’m not going to get my draft done before our writing retreat.
And my options are…
- Just skip to the next scene, leaving this one unfinished and fix it later
- Write a quick summary of what is supposed to happen and flesh it out later
- Make myself finish the scene, no matter how boring I find it and fix it later
Every single one makes me cringe, but I know I have to pick one if I’m ever going to finish it. And I really want to finish it. So I have got to get through this wall and get to the other side so I can keep moving.
So that’s where I am right now. Stuck as can be. And I won’t have time to unstick myself this week.
So wish me luck on unsticking myself, and I wish luck to all of you out there with no time to write or stuck on a scene. Write on!